All41 AT-ONE-ment - Sharing our Love Story

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Comment by Kaylan Cahli Rha on May 11, 2009 at 4:29pm

Here we go...looking forward to class and discussing : )

Kaylan’s Script

(Kathy and Liz are in Liz’s car on there way to their grandma’s house)

K: Why do you always say that?

L: Because it is true you are selfish and always think of yourself. And don’t get that we are all struggling not just you!

K: You have been running that story on me sense I can remember! You think I don’t care that is the furthest thing from the truth!

L: Well I’m not giving you anything, the way you ask for it was so demanding! Figure out your own way I am not helping you, you don’t deserve it!

K: I will, and I never asked anything from you I never expected that you would give me money! I told you my situation and you told me we would figure it out, just to get my ass on that plane. I trusted that, and left that morning! I’m not trying to attack you, or demand money from you! But I do need to figure out if I can stay longer or not because I don’t have the funds to stay unless I get some support.

L: Oh right I know what your going to do. Go ask mom for money make her feel guilty so she will give it to you! Like you always do!

K: Whatever Liz, I hate that you think of me this way. That is not who I am and what ever mom dose with her money is none of your business anyway.

L: It is, when she does not have any to spend in the first place I am left with the stress and mess to pick up after her. You just don’t get it! You just don’t get it!

K: I don’t know what to do Liz. I’m not trying to put anyone out. I just need to deal with the reality of the current situation. And what that is saying is that I go home tomorrow! Because I can’t afford to stay here and I don’t want to be such a burden, because that was never my intention!

L: Whatever Kathy, I knew this would happen. You think your so much more important then everyone else, that we just need to cater to you. Well I am not. Fine, fine, it’s just fine!!! Whatever!

K: You are such a bitch! I hate the way you talk to me. You don’t obviously know me at all! (Kathy slams the door to the car running and crying)








2nd version of Kaylan's Script
(dropping story and judgement)

K: What makes you say that Liz?

L: Because it is true you are selfish and always think of yourself. And don’t get that we are all struggling not just you!

K: I’m sorry Liz. I’ll try my best to understand and respect what it is that you are struggling with. And yes your right I am thinking of myself right now. I am worried about money and struggling with the fact that I want to be here with you longer and am not sure how at this moment. That’s why I am asking what do you think we could do?

L: Well I’m not giving you anything, the way you ask for it was so demanding! Figure out your own way I am not helping you, you don’t deserve it!

K: My intention was not to sound or be demanding and if I was I am sorry I may have been really stressed and threw my responsibility onto you in a moment of panic. For that I am sorry. I was hoping we could resolve this together.

L: Oh right I know what your going to do. Go ask mom for money make her feel guilty so she will give it to you! Like you always do!

K: Your right mom has always been supportive of me. And yes, I may ask mom, if I choose to stay I don’t see any other way.

L: It is my business when she does not have any to spend in the first place I am left with the stress and mess to pick up after her. You just don’t get it! You just don’t get it!

K: You’re right, I don’t get it, could you help me to understand what you mean?

L: Whatever Kathy, I new this would happen you think your so much more important then everyone else that we just need to cater to you. Well I am not! Fine, fine, it’s just fine!!! Whatever!

K: I did not mean to upset you Liz, I love you! What could I do to help make this better for you? I don’t want to fight, all I wanted was to be here for all of you and to be able to see grandma one last time. And I got that, I am happy. If I go tomorrow or in a week I will cherish this experience. You know, I would not be here if it was not for your phone call and your keen intuition for me to come over. I would have missed it all. I will forever be grateful that you did. I love you and thank you for opening your home, bed, food, car, and ongoing support for me being hear. Without that none of this would be happening. You are amazing Liz! (Kathy reaches over to give Liz a hug)

Comment by Melanie Lambert on May 10, 2009 at 3:04pm

Everybody has to agree to the You Tube thing before the movie we've already made gets put on. Let's discuss this on Monday night?

But in the meantime, we all said we would put our scripts for our ideas on ALL41 and meet at 6pm on Monday night for a half hour creation/discussion before the main class.....

I have started about 3 scripts and none are any I want to put on but here goes with a close to final version......

ITS ALL ABOUT WHO I AM BEING
Scenario 1 (PS I know why I have a block writing this is because I have not been this myself!! Exposing my hypocrisy and lack of "getting it" myself)

Mother & Daughter (Fear Consciousness)
Mother's thoughts: It's all your fault, how dare you show me such disrespect after everything I do for you. You don't love me otherwise you wouldn't treat me this way. You're nice to everyone else, what about me????
Mother's words: You "have" to do what I say (and ignore what I do). You are heading for a black star rating if you don't do as you're told.
Mother's actions: Hands on hips, stern face, harsh & bossy tone of voice

Daughter's Reaction: (Duh!) REBELLIOUS!!!!

Scenario 2: (Love Consciousness)
Mother's thoughts: I am here to be and express love, to contribute all the gifts I have been blessed with. I have it all within me, I AM Love (pretending I'm not loved is like water thinking it is not wet!) The fight to "get" love from a child in the form of obedience disappears......
Mother's words: You can be anything you want in life, you can achieve anything. I believe in you, I am here to serve you with gladness and joy in discovering your choices and access to FREE WILL. You are a blessing in my life.
Mother's actions: Open face, open mind, enquiries to find out what is going on in her world (rather than only hearing her own version). Present and there in the daughter's space as a contributor, rather than using the strategies of avoiding or dominating in order to fill an empty, insatiable void to validate the "I'm unloved and unworthy" story of a small, pathetic ego.

Daughter's Reaction: Who cares about any reaction? Mother gets to see who her daughter really is for the first time!! What a wake up call to something so much greater than robotic and preprogrammed reactions...........

Anything is possible in love, people can look different to us in a heartbeat when we change who we are being!

Comment by Kaylan Cahli Rha on May 9, 2009 at 11:10pm

So where are we guys. I've not been particapating in the project for over 3 weeks now. What do we want to create with what we have? Do we want to add more? Or do some final edditing and put it up on u-tube? Let me know your thoughts and suggestions.

Blessings Kaylan

Comment by Melanie Lambert on April 29, 2009 at 7:44pm

Dear Cairo,

You rock!

Love,
Mel

Comment by Cairo Rha on April 29, 2009 at 4:16pm

FEAR/DOUBT
At a Karaoke Bar

a: Come on. At home you sing like a bird, all day long.

b: Yep, by myself - or with a couple of friends. Not in front of a hundred strangers.

a: Why are you doubting yourself?

b: I’m not.

a: Uh huh.

b: Well, maybe. Anyway, I’ve done it before.

a: Completely blotto! You said you wanted to do it tonight clear, straight, just to go for it as you are. And, that I wasn’t allowed to let you chicken out.

b: That was then. Plus, there are people here I know. Look, there’s Sam.

a: It just gets better! Nows your chance to wow him.

b: That’d be fun! Nah. He’ll think I’m a fool.

a: And if he does.

b: It’d kill me.

a: Really?

b: I’m not doing it.

a: What’s the worst that can happen?

b: I don’t know.

a: Scared of the unknown?

b: What if I don’t get it right and look like an idiot. I’m not doing it. That’s that. Maybe if I have a few more drinks...

a: Are you sure you’re worried about looking like an idiot?

b: Forget about it. I’m tired anyway. I want to get going.

a: What’s the worst that can happen if you keep running away from your gift.

b: What? A lifetime of misery maybe. Whatever!





ACT DESPITE

a: Come on. At home you sing like a bird, all day long.

b: Yep, by myself - or with a couple of friends. Not in front of a hundred strangers.

a: Why are you doubting yourself?

b: I don’t know. Especially seeing as I’ve done it before.

a: Completely blotto! You said you wanted to do it tonight clear, straight, just to go for it as you are. And, that I wasn’t allowed to let you chicken out.

b: I’m glad I did. I can see my fears and doubts coming up big time. Oh my God...there’s Sam!

a: It just gets better! Nows your chance to wow him.

b: That’d be fun! What if he thinks I’m a fool.

a: And if he does?

b: I’d be embarrassed.

a: So what?

b: He’d tell everyone how bad I was.

a: And?

b: He wouldn’t want to be with me.

a: So what?

b: So, I will die unloved and lonely.

a: Really?

b: Not really. (Laughs).

a: What’s the worst that can happen?

b: I will be exposed...to the unknown.

a: Scared of the unknown?

b: Yes! Which is why I am doing this!

a: Nows your chance.

(b: goes onto stage and nails the piece).

Comment by Cairo Rha on April 25, 2009 at 11:11pm

I've been thinking about the project....and keep coming up with ideas of things that we could do. Some are worth mentioning, some just fly by. the thing that keeps coming up for me is this: what am i willing to do with these ideas.

We seem to have no shortage of ideas. The only thing that we seem to be in short supply of at the moment is the will to make things happen.

I'm gald that we are meeting on Monday. In this meeting I would like us to get a list of things that we each dommit to. I get a sense that once we create some momentum the project will take on a life of its own. Given that the project, is a very real sense. who we are, we will need to each think about and create jobs to own.

I was thinking that we should each think about what our current most pressing chalenges are and look at how our journey is assisting us in meeting these challenges - or not as the case may be : )

I love you all so much and thank you for this extraordinary opportunity to live in the light of truth. May you expose me at every turn and may we open together into a loving future beyond our imagining.

Cairo : )

Comment by Melanie Lambert on April 12, 2009 at 2:13pm

This is just to acknowledge Cairo's magnificent effort to present a completed version of our first movie last Monday. It is funny, inspiring and we're definitely on to something awesome to share........ Thanks team, our awakening hearts are beautiful :-)

Comment by Melanie Lambert on April 2, 2009 at 8:00pm

I look at how motivated I have been to heal & "fix" my family where that would somehow complete me, make me a better person etc. Hmmm ....

I have also asked myself what would life be like for me if I lived everyday as if I was at a course, experiencing massive breakthroughs and miracles???? Instead I observe how little I take being confronted by my own righteousness at work as an opportunity to grow and learn how to create massive breakthroughs and miracles for myself & others even if they're not "open" to possibility. It is me that doesn't want to give up the deliciousness of being right, even at the expense of full self expression, affinity and making a difference. I am "waiting" again for some external motivation to make me respectful, accepting and trusting with a certain authority figure I definitely don't choose, someone who my ego just wants to punish for being such an ignoramous re how he treats others....doh I see how my complaints are really about myself! I am beginning to see that I'm not free to choose anything else.....I'm not free to CHOOSE amazing possibilities at work whilst I am so busy making it a "have to" in order for me to be happy being in the job I'm in right now. I will practice choosing my job as it is, then I might create the freedom to choose to BE the change I expect to see from a certain supervisor I don't "have to" work with, but maybe choose to learn from instead. It is my chance to develop mastery over my own nasty habit of treating people with disdain if they don't fit my idea of a "decent" human being! Ew, how "superior" of me! But mainly it is about not making myself wrong...... letting myself and others be.

Anyway, when I grow up I want to be like my daughter, this weekend she demonstrated taking responsibility for the impact of her behaviour and did NOT use it as an excuse to beat herself up for making a mistake!!!! She is my hero and the star in my movie of life hehehe

Comment by Cairo Rha on March 31, 2009 at 12:30am

What is free choice? I have been asking myself this all week. A moment of absence, of resistance to flow, a mere moment of lacking awareness can spark wildfires that burn on and on. I see that I often begin things with inspiration and as soon as it can get a look in (which is usually very quickly!) the ego will tranform this into angles, strategies, perspectives designed to motivate me to fulfil its 'needs'.

Fortunately the shift back to presence is instant - obviously! As is the shift back to motivation. The film idea that comes to me is of someone meditating and again we hear their inner dialogue. We hear the sweet silence and peace of present, open awareness and the voices of fear, judgment and cynicism that tend to buble up from the void. Then the lulling as awareness returns. Then the tug...and so on.

Time for bed : )

Comment by Cairo Rha on March 28, 2009 at 8:09am

Also, when we were in seattle last year we went to Pike Place Markets. They are amazing! We have a video if you would like to see it. Thanks for sharing this:

Choosing their attitude,
Adding Play to their duties,
Make their customers Day and
are PRESENT!

I will carry this with me as I go through my day and see what happens!

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